Free Falling

How do you find your balance when everything that was holding you up is gone. My father was one of, if not THE most important person in my life. He passed away less than a month ago - less than six months after he was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin's lymphoma. He was 58 years old. There is a hole in my heart now and an emptiness that I feel every minute of every day. The worst part is no amount of begging, pleading or crying can bring him back. How do you fill that void or learn to live with it?

Music has always been a huge part of my life thanks mostly to my father who started my musical education at a very young age. By the time I was 15 I'd seen The Who, The Rolling Stones, Paul McCartney, The Beach Boys and many other legends. When your heart breaks it seems that every song is being sung for you. This year's been a tough one and I've taken comfort in John Mayer's songwriting. The Lyrics to his song "Heart Of Life" in particular. 

                   Heart Of Life

I hate to see you cry lying there in that position
There's things you need to hear
So turn off your tears and listen
Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But i know the heart of life is good

You know it's nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
Then the circle of your friends
Will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But i know the heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend who's misunderstood
But i know the heart of life is good. 
I know it's good.